Yeah, yeah. It’s a double negative, but you know what I mean. Also, it’s a song lyric by Faithless. Remember that one? As I type this, I am hoping that tonight will be the night I remember how to sleep well. It’s been a while. And I know why. It’s been the perfect storm of everything. Often I’ll fall asleep exhausted and then wake up a couple of short hours later and just never get back to my slumbering. Or I’ll spend hours and hours trying to get sleepy at all, only to doze off way too late to rack up some decent hours. It’s been truly frustrating. I’ve tried…
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My word for 2020: Authenticity
I don’t always find a word that sums up my intention for an upcoming year. Sometimes nothing comes to me and I just shrug and let things unfold. Not this time, my friends! This time I am passionate AF about my word. I did a lot of growing and learning in 2019 and now I want to spend 2020 making sure I never forget my lessons. The past decade in general has been intense! Lots of personal growth for my husband and I, individually and as a couple. We’ve become parents. Survived a big chunk of that time during which we couldn’t conceive the Little Miss and then undergoing a…
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(Re)Learning to live my truth.
Lately, a few things have been prompting me to think about living more authentically. Moving about in this world in a way that is good for my soul (and hopefully for those around me). Not hiding away fantastic, vibrant, maybe a little sassy (but ultimately fun and harmless), or even darker parts of me that I’m afraid some people will not like. I am a people pleaser from way back. I’ve always had this thing about craving the approval of others. I get anxious at the thought of someone judging me or treating me differently/worse because I didn’t please them first (and usually the people I’m anxious about do not…
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My baby is turning 1.
“Aw how old is she? About 8 months?” asked the young looking check out operator at the local Woolies. “She’s almost 1!” I said, thinking it was cute that he’d had a stab at it anyway.“I’ve got a 21 month old and when she was little we were always wishing for her to get older so it would get easier, but now she’s up and into everything!”Ah, no wonder my 11 month old looked so young to him. Anyone younger than his lively toddler probably seemed so little and a distant memory to him now! I said, “Yeah. We look back with rose coloured glasses, don’t we? Those days you…
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I felt scared and then I felt old and then it was OK.
I went out last night. My friend and I decided it was time to cash in on our husbands’ recent sporting outings together and do something for ourselves! We were going to have dinner and some drinks and then see where the night took us. Of course none of our other mum friends could make it out because mumming is bloody hard (and fair enough) so it was just the two of us – old mates since high school – catching up. It felt like the old days except I didn’t have to knock on her mum’s front door to pick her up haha. Also, we had decided to catch…
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My children don’t get equal billing on social media & I have no remorse about it.
So right now I have a nine and a half month old and a just turned 7 year old. I’ll come right out and say that I know my second baby is currently getting more online air time than my firstborn. I also know that some people (OK so like 2) have decided that this is something they want me to know about, like I’m oblivious or something. I am sure many more people may have made private judgements. Here is my reasoning and my defence and then I do not want to speak about it anymore. I might get a little feisty, so hold onto your hats. If you…
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What I’m looking forward to for the rest of 2018 & what I hope for in 2019.
The other day we were in the car on the way to school drop off and the Little Mister surprised me with a couple of great questions. “What are you looking forward to for the rest of 2018 and what do you hope for in 2019?” I don’t know where this came from. Maybe it’s come up at school or he saw something written down somewhere (he’s getting pretty clever with his reading) or heard something on TV? I don’t know. Either way, I thought it was a great way to reflect. I gave him my short answers because I’m shit at thinking too deeply when I haven’t slept well…
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The reasons camping sucks (and why I wouldn’t change a thing about it).
It’s the middle of the night and I’m wide awake in my quiet, dark house. It’s our first night at home in two weeks after a camping trip away. It’s weird. The thing about camping is that it’s hard work sometimes. There’s no electricity. There’s no wifi. Sometimes there’s not even any mobile phone reception. Do you know how hard it was to watch a short video clip someone sent me or to get a second to watch some Instagram stories?? It was hard to keep our phones charged. We had to rely on the car battery or the battery we were using to power the fridge. The Engel fridge…
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R U OK Day 2018.
It’s RUOK day today. It’s a reminder to us all that we should be checking in with the people we know and care about (or even someone we don’t know if it seems important at the time) and asking how they are doing all year ’round. It’s a time to open up a conversation about how to do that and what steps to take when somebody replies with a big fat NOPE. Or even what to do if they say they’re FINE but everything else says they’re not. I want to be really honest about my year so far. It has been amazing but I have not always felt OK.…
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Who the hell goes camping with a baby? Us. We do.
Holy shit. We’re doing it. We’re going camping soon. For the first time in 2 years! And the first time with an 8 month old baby (the Little Mister was 14 months old the first time we took him). We are finally starting to feel like we might just somehow, miraculously pull this off. We’ve bought some new supplies, made a crapload of lists and it’s been very exciting chatting with our friends about it (there’s going to be a massive group of us)! It could not be coming at a better time and I am thanking past Kez (and our friends who invited us) for this big time! At…
