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A person…trying on clothes.

This post has been inspired by Fat Mum Slim’s Photo a Day challenge xunnamed

Yesterday I went clothes shopping. Alone. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I made the most of the fact that there’s late night shopping on a Thursday and I was on a mission. I never usually have much time to try things on (a toddler isn’t always the best clothes shopping companion) and I was in desperate need of a few things to wear over the summer.

I had been reduced to one black dress (not as fancy as it sounds and the fabric was starting to take on that ‘slept in’ fuzzy look) and a pair of mummy denim shorts, both of which I had purchased when the Little Mister was a really little baby (he’s three in November). Sure, I’ve bought the occasional party dress (under pressure haha) or bunch of tops since, but my body shape has fluctuated and befuddled me ever since, making it very hard to find the right stuff. I am only now beginning to feel like I’m getting a handle on it.

I have spent a long time feeling like my ‘look’ has been very clumsy and dated. In fact, I’ve felt like I don’t even have a ‘look’. Unless you call it, “I am overweight and I am just trying to hide it all the time with the only two items I own that don’t make me feel TOO hideous.”

That’s not good enough, I’ve decided! Summer is coming and I can’t hide in daggy hoodies any longer!

I know I thought 30 was sooooooo old when I was 29 little, but it’s really not. I still feel young. I refuse to give up! I want to walk down the street, believing that I’m a little bit stylish and not completely out of touch with fashion. When my clothes are all worn out, that’s exactly how I feel. Worn out. I think I’ve earnt the right to feel worn out in nice clothes at least!!! 😉

I’m not talking designer labels and all the latest trends at once. Just a few simple, affordable pieces that let me feel like a part of the real world, while still being practical enough that I can wrangle play with my toddler without exposing anything indecent *ahem*.

Anyway, I picked a great time to shop. Sales everywhere! I got some really amazing bargains. Some casual dresses, some classy looking tops that make my new mummy denim shorts look a little bit more special, and some more work out gear (to help motivate me). I also decked out Mr Unprepared’s wardrobe while I was at it!

I also put a beautiful dress from Portmans on lay-by. When something fits your wonky and wobbly body, you secure it! I know there will be plenty of nice events to go to as the weather warms up, so it will be a great investment.

I probably won’t be able to go shopping for clothes again any time soon, so I am excited to have some stuff to tide me over. I’ve woken up today, actually looking forward to leaving the house. While I am certainly not depressed, nor anti-social, I had started to feel dread at having to put clothes on that are acceptable enough to be worn in public. It could almost convince me to stay in, because it all just seemed so hard. I’m not a superficial person by any means, but my self image has been suffering of late.

Don’t worry about me, because I feel really positive right now. I’ve decided to do something about it. I’ve already lost 1.5kg and I’ve taken some steps to focus more on self care. I have to speak up more and put myself first.

I didn’t buy the top I tried on in the photo, by the way. While the detail in the top part of it is so flattering, I felt like it was another top to ‘hide’ in (with a billowy elasticated hem) and decided to leave it behind. Small steps! 🙂

What little things will you do for yourself this weekend?