• Fertility

    Our secondary infertility story: Part 7 – Clomid

    This was written in February 2016. It hadn’t been published yet as I just wasn’t ready. In hindsight I can see that I was clearly more hopeful than I let myself believe. I actually feel quite sad for the February 2016 me because I know she had a lot more to go through before any good news was to be received. This was the beginning of a really rough year.  You can catch up on anything you may have missed here… Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 In our continued efforts to get me knocked up (we’re hitting the 18 month mark of trying to conceive),…

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    Our secondary infertility story: Part 6 – Only Child?

    I wrote this on the 27th December, 2015 (we’d been trying to conceive since July 2014). I have been chronicling my/our journey through secondary infertility. While it’s not something I wanted to publish right away, I couldn’t stop myself from needing to write our story.  You can catch up on previous instalments of this story here… Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 As I sit here typing, I am waiting for my period. Like literally waiting. I’m a day late and while a small, eternally hopeful part of me is getting a bit excited (despite my better judgement), I know that I am more than likely…

  • Fertility

    Our secondary infertility story: Part 5 – Ovulation Tracking

    This post was written in December, 2015. We’d been trying to conceive since July 2014.  You can catch up on parts 1 to 4 here… Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 As I write this, I am coming to the end of a cycle of ovulation tracking by blood tests. It’s been quite the time consuming process and I have spent a lot of time hanging out with phlebotomists in pathology clinics. I have had to have tests at least every few days (sometimes a few days in a row) and it has been a bit exhausting! When I first started doing it, I was already getting used…

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    Our secondary infertility story: Part 4 “Don’t forget – you’ve never been clucky”

    This blog post was written in November 2015, during our journey with secondary infertility. We decided not to talk about it much back then (to protect our privacy and because today’s topic was really difficult), but I just couldn’t stop writing.  Catch up here… Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 My mum looked at me and said, “But darling, you’ve never been clucky.” In that moment I was a little taken aback. Oh yeah. That’s true. How did I forget that? What the hell were we talking about, you ask? Well, I had been talking to my mum about how it was really difficult to see so many people around…

  • Fertility

    Our secondary infertility story: Part 3 – Buying tests – it’s a minefield of awkwardness.

    This post was written in November, 2015 – about 16 months into the trying for a baby/dealing with secondary infertility thing. I didn’t feel comfortable publishing all of my story in real time (some things needed to play out first), but I couldn’t stop myself from writing it all down. Here is the third instalment of my story… You can catch up on part 1 here and part 2 here When we first started this ‘trying for a second baby’ thing, I wasn’t too fussed about testing for ovulation or buying ALL the pregnancy tests. I was coming off the pill again and it had taken about 4-5 months to…

  • Fertility

    Our secondary infertility story: Part 2 – HSG.

    This post was written in October 2015 (about 15 months into our efforts to conceive) while everything was still fresh in my mind. I’m trying to publish the stories that I would have liked to read at the time. These stories haven’t been told by me until now, because it was a sensitive subject that was hard to talk about and I thought it best to wait until it wasn’t so raw.  You can catch up on part 1 here I’m quickly learning that sometimes it’s the anticipation of a fertility related procedure that is the worst part. So far I have had an ultrasound (yes – that includes the type where…

  • Fertility,  health

    Our secondary infertility story: Part 1 (15 months trying to conceive).

    This post was written in October 2015 when everything was still fresh in my mind. It hasn’t been published until now, because it was a very difficult thing to talk about and process at the time. I would like to finally share my story of secondary infertility and beyond (currently expecting a little miracle in February 2018 – we are over the moon) over the following days/weeks. It’s both therapy and also hopefully something that someone else might find helpful or informative or interesting. I tried to document my experiences by writing the stuff I would have wanted to read. I’m no hero or crusader but I do hope that I…

  • just some thoughts,  Parenting,  Secondary Infertility

    {From the Vault} Just wait until you have kids! Said no Kez ever.

    I just found this post in my drafts folder – dated October, 2013 (the Little Mister was almost 2). I think it’s still relevant now – especially as I’ve experienced quite the journey with secondary infertility. I have occasionally heard the words, “At least you only have one child. I have (insert plural number here). Just wait until you experience it!” as a way of telling me that I have it easier and have no idea. Sure, I probably do have it easier in some ways – I definitely have it easier than someone who wants so badly to become a parent but cannot. But I’d also argue that the…

  • Fertility,  just some thoughts,  milestones,  Parenting

    Mother’s Day shout outs.

    I was just going to make a little Facebook post for Mother’s Day, but realised that I have soooooo much to say. Probably a bit too much for Facebook. Which wouldn’t be out of character ? Anyway, I’ll start with myself (what an ego – kidding – just getting it out of the way)! I am so grateful to be a mum. When I say that, there’s a lot of weight to it. I have truly realised in the last 3 years of secondary infertility hell that being a mum is not a right. Becoming one is not a certainty for anyone. You can do all the right things (and…

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    Taking Stock: May 2017

    It’s May! I feel like this year is zooming by, but I’m not mad about it. It’s time for me to take stock, like I do every couple of months! It’s a great way to capture what’s happening in an exact moment of my life. I find I actually get quite REAL in these posts for some reason. You would probably find out some little things about me that I don’t mention anywhere else. Or not. Who knows. Let’s find out! Making: time to catch up with myself on this lovely Friday. It’s lovely because it’s Friday and I have a day off from work or boring obligations! Cooking: is fun on…