• just some thoughts

    I felt scared and then I felt old and then it was OK.

    I went out last night. My friend and I decided it was time to cash in on our husbands’ recent sporting outings together and do something for ourselves! We were going to have dinner and some drinks and then see where the night took us. Of course none of our other mum friends could make it out because mumming is bloody hard (and fair enough) so it was just the two of us – old mates since high school – catching up. It felt like the old days except I didn’t have to knock on her mum’s front door to pick her up haha. Also, we had decided to catch…

  • just some thoughts,  travel

    The reasons camping sucks (and why I wouldn’t change a thing about it).

    It’s the middle of the night and I’m wide awake in my quiet, dark house. It’s our first night at home in two weeks after a camping trip away. It’s weird. The thing about camping is that it’s hard work sometimes. There’s no electricity. There’s no wifi. Sometimes there’s not even any mobile phone reception. Do you know how hard it was to watch a short video clip someone sent me or to get a second to watch some Instagram stories?? It was hard to keep our phones charged. We had to rely on the car battery or the battery we were using to power the fridge. The Engel fridge…

  • helping others,  just some thoughts

    I’m sick of feeling scared and helpless.

    Trigger warning: post contains mention of the rape and murder of Eurydice Dixon, as well as general references to violence and sexual assault against women.  By now, a lot of Aussies would have seen the recent headlines: a young woman named Eurydice Dixon was found raped and murdered in a park (Princes Park) in Melbourne a couple of nights ago. It was an awful crime and my heart goes out to all who knew her. This attack on an innocent woman is the stuff that plays on the minds of women daily. What happened to Eurydice Dixon is a fear we all have drummed into us from a young age. I…

  • Happy List

    Happy List #52

    Life can get a little overwhelming and exhausting in these parts right now. I’m still trying to get a feel for being a family of 4 (just because I love it does not mean I am nailing it haha). I need to get more organised and find a rhythm that works for us. Stuff like easy but healthy dinners, ways to prep lunches, making online shopping work for me, getting better at handling the evening routine in a more timely manner, knocking off to-do lists more efficiently etc. Basically, time and energy saving ‘hacks’ (I hate how everything is called a ‘hack’ these days). Things I can achieve with a…

  • Fertility,  pregnancy

    13 weeks pregnant.

    At 13 weeks, it felt really good to see the end of the first trimester! I had worked through a lot of feelings, found great reassurance in the fact that our first trimester scan had gone well and I felt comfortable enough to make plans with people again. It gave me a thrill to take my time walking through the baby sections of local shops without having to look over my shoulder and worry about who might see me. I could peruse the (very god damn limited) maternity clothing. I could buy some stuff in person. I was out and about with my bump and it felt good (even though…

  • Happy List

    The Happy List #50: Birthday Week edition.

    Last week was my 33rd birthday week. Not just a day, but a week! I sure know how to milk something for all its worth haha. But y’know, sometimes you have to stagger out some of the celebration/s and somehow it just becomes one big festival of birthday. I am not complaining! I think being alive for another year is always something to celebrate, whether you’re 1 or 100! Or you know, some kind of obscure, non impressive, non-milestone number like 33. Although, 3 is my lucky number, so two of them next to each other has to be a good omen, right? RIGHT? Oh goodness, I hope so! I…

  • Happy List

    The Happy List #49

    Well, hello there Monday! How the hell are you? I am glad it’s a new week. Last week was quite emotionally draining. I made the most of it and there were definitely lots of positives to be experienced, but I think that the craziness that was my March finally hit me. You know when you’re in survival mode, so everything’s go go go and you don’t have time to think or even feel? And then you finally come back to a baseline of normality and it’s a bit of a crash? That. So I’ve decided to start this fresh week with a focus on the positives! Here are some things…

  • just some thoughts

    Let’s talk about my 2016.

    2016 and I have had quite the relationship. If I had to make it Facebook official, I’d be selecting “it’s complicated” as our relationship status. Because there have been aspects of it that have sucked, but if it hadn’t sucked I might not have had such a good year. Are you confused yet? Like, on the one hand, I want to say this was the worst year ever. But on the other hand, I feel like I really had some amazing break throughs and adventures. I feel like I can’t completely write it off. Let’s start with the stuff that sucked (in the name of getting it out of the way)… OK,…

  • Happy List

    The Happy List #45

    Happy weekend, everybody! I haven’t written a happy list in a while, but I’m feeling the urge right now. While life has had its challenges of late (thank you so much for the support – you know who you are), it doesn’t mean I haven’t had some great moments. Moments that I am really grateful for. Here are the things that have made me happy in the past week or so… Good customer service It’s such a little thing, isn’t it? But sometimes, if you’ve been stressing about something, a friendly customer service person can make all the difference. I had to contact my private health insurer in a pinch…

  • Happy List,  Uncategorized

    The Happy List #37

    I’m experiencing  a touch of the Sunday blues right now – it feels like I have so much stuff to organise for the coming week – eep! But I’ll be fine – just have to write some lists. Lists make everything seem easier, I find! But enough of that, here’s the stuff that has made me happy in the last week… A night out with friends Last night we celebrated the engagement of a couple of friends. It was a fun night out – so great to see everyone together in the same place. It was one of those great parties where you know almost everyone and you could mingle with…