• Uncategorized,  Weekly Wrap Up

    2019 Weekly Wrap Up #15

    This week (9-15 April) has been a bit difficult to write about for the blog. Some big, emotional things were going on at the time and there were lots of stories that were/are not mine to tell. While I wrote a lot in my personal journal at this time, I have obviously had to leave some things out, publicly. Just know that during this week, I really learned a lot about myself and life in general too. It was hard but it was a time that brought people together. 9 April – Tuesday I was supposed to go to the gym today, but the Little Miss had a really rough…

  • health,  Kez Gets Physical,  Uncategorized

    Kez’s Anxiety vs. Gym

    Hi, I’m Kez and I get weird whenever I’m about to try something I’ve never done before. Like freaking out about where I will park when I drive somewhere I’ve never been or turning up somewhere like 6 hours too early because being early feels like the only thing I can control about a new situation. Well, this week I finally joined a gym. And let me tell you, it was an ordeal for me. At first I was all fired up about it and ready to jump into it with gusto. I had tried one too many times to do a home work out, with my son nagging me…

  • Weekly Wrap Up

    2019: Weekly Wrap Up #7

    How are you? I’m typing this after 5 hours of sleep. I am so tired but so wired right now which seems to be the story of my life! Anyway, here is my recap of the 7th week of 2019. I’ve fallen behind but I’m stubborn if nothing else, so I am just going to write these posts at my own pace! I’ve been doing this thing where I have challenged myself to write a little page in a paper journal every day of 2019. I don’t share everything publicly, so think of this blog series as a bit of a highlight reel (not to say that everything I share…

  • Weekly Wrap Up

    2019: Week 4

    Wow, is January not the longest month of the year? I am not hating it, but it’s so strange how everything slows down at this time of the year! Maybe it’s just because I’m a school mum? Who knows. I wondered when I’d start to wish for school to go back and I am really quite impressed with myself that the feeling only kicked in this week haha. Here’s my wrap up of the 4th week of 2019… January 22 – Tuesday I had started the week feeling really overwhelmed but knowing I had made a commitment to meet my friend Carly and her daughter H kept me going. I…

  • Weekly Wrap Up

    2019: Week 3

    Hey! How are you? I hope you’re doing OK. Here’s my wrap up of the third week of 2019… January 15 – Tuesday We struggled through this day. I realised I was suffering from the January Blues (it’s a thing I get OK?) and I was getting a bunch of anxious, negative thoughts swirling through my head. It wasn’t helped by the fact that the Little Miss was not getting any sleep! The house next door was being worked on by tradies who had a very loud drill that they only used at nap time. Of course! I decided we needed a circuit breaker and we headed to my mum’s…

  • pregnancy

    35 weeks pregnant: the emotional rollercoaster.

    This post was written on January 13th, 2018 I have been writing weekly updates on my pregnancy with the Little Miss since we found out she was in my belly. I was also documenting the really big moments that stood out during our journey (ugh – the ‘j’ word) with secondary infertility. This post is a bit different from the rest of my documentation of my pregnancy. A bonus post. Something I’m not ready to publicly publish right this moment (at 35 weeks and 5 days along in the early hours because this story just has to bust out of me despite the part of me that knows I really…

  • just some thoughts,  Uncategorized

    Back to School anxiety: mine, not his.

    It’s January. That time when it sinks in that the school holidays are not as long as you thought they were and you feel that downward slide back to reality. Another school year, filled with trying to remember stuff and being on time for drop offs and pick ups and SO MANY LUNCHES to be made. I am looking forward to the Little Mister attending pre-primary full time. I imagine the first few weeks will be full of exhausted after school meltdowns, but I am excited to be able to spread my work hours out over the week more evenly and feel a lot more productive. The thing is, I…

  • Happy List

    The Happy List #47

    In the last few days, I’ve been feeling a bit attacked by my anxiety monster (her name is Patrice because “NOBODY ASKED YOU PATRICE!” – it’s a How I Met Your Mother reference – too obscure?). The timing of it makes sense. It’s a busy time of year, I’m tired, my hormones are probably all over the place because my body can’t seem to get its act together fertility wise. I’m worried about the future (anxiety’s favourite pastime) because of that whole situation. As usual, I just have to wait her out. Patrice is a bitch and never knows when to leave, even though I’ve stood up and I’m holding…

  • getting silly,  Uncategorized

    Anticipatory Car Park Anxiety: It’s totally a thing.

    Sometimes I get anxiety about a bunch of things (some reasons that make more sense than others). But I have this one anxiety quirk that has never left me. And I want to know if I’m the only one who deals with it… I get anxious about where I’m going to park when I arrive somewhere.  Like, for real. If I am not familiar with the venue or area, I spend way too long worried about where my car will be situated. Like, my heart will actually race at the thought of it sometimes. I will spend ages before I leave home, googling maps and wondering if it’s parallel street…

  • just some thoughts,  milestones,  Parenting

    I’m not ready (to be a school mum)!

    OK, so technically I am ready in the sense that all of the booklist items have been procured and the Little Mister’s uniform is ready and all I have to do is put his name on everything. I learned about being prepared nice and early because BC (Before Child) I worked in a stationery and school supplies store and the stress the ‘last minute’ parents put themselves through was SO not worth it (and it made them into horrible monsters). But mentally ready? Not. At. All. As for the Little Mister – he seems nervous but glad to be a ‘big kid’ at ‘big school’ soon (we’re talking kindy for…