If you’ve followed me for a while, you’d know that I am on a constant journey of trying to improve my mental and physical health. I have some success, then I fall back, then I try again. And I blog about it and try not to bore you too much with all the ups and downs! *embarrassed face emoji*
But I keep going because I hope that at the very least, I’m relatable? Like, I’m not going to get a six pack (the not alcohol kind) or run a marathon any time soon but I do want to look after myself and do it in a way that isn’t too overwhelming or unachievable for the average parent/adult with limited time and funds!
Lately, I have fallen behind in looking after my health. It’s all the usual stuff – comfort eating, not being active enough in my down time. Not trying hard enough to prioritise my own self care, when trying to balance family/home life (ugh I hate that I do the martyr thing – hate it). I’ve also dealt with the mental blocks related to my struggles with secondary infertility. There are times in my cycle that I’m too scared to go hard with exercise for various reasons (I got scared when I had endometriosis because my ovary would hurt when I ran and that feeling has stuck with me). I also admit that I’ve comfort eaten whenever the familiar signs of PMS have returned (something that is tough enough when you’re not trying to conceive but very upsetting when you are). I’ve also had fluctuating energy levels as a result of lots of fertility related stuff. Not to mention, my immune system has suffered greatly this winter (I know it’s spring but I’m calling it winter until the weather proves otherwise)!
While I am being kind to myself as some things I deal with are unavoidable, I also want to kick myself up the arse. I feel like I get held back in a few areas of my life and I don’t want my health to be one of those things anymore.
So, I’ve decided to get back on track. I’m going to be really disciplined for the upcoming school term (starting this week coming). That’s around 10 weeks. I know I’m going to feel so good about myself if I just get my act together!
I am hoping to lose weight for both superficial and health reasons. I’ve ballooned out a bit and while it doesn’t wreck my day (I love being in my 30s and not losing entire days bawling my eyes out about how I look in my jeans anymore), I do admit to being a bit confronted by photos (and shop window reflections) these days. I also want to be fitter. I’m OK fitness wise, but I could really try harder.
I don’t have specific 10 week targets in place, but I do want to see my weight drop weekly (whether it’s 100 grams or a whole kilo I will take it) and I do want to average 70,000 steps a week.
I am going to try to eat cleaner and to watch my portion sizes. I think I would benefit greatly from cutting down on my carb consumption. I am honestly THE WORST. My protein to greens to carbohydrates ratios are severely out of whack each meal time!
Mostly I am going to just enjoy the feeling of knowing I’m doing my best and not giving into excuses! I may have fallen off the healthy living wagon time and again, but I’m proud of myself that I’ll never stop trying to do better!
I hope to check in with you at the end of the school year, with some good news about how I’m fitting in my clothes and enjoying being active and shit.
In the meantime I am going to use the hashtag #kezgetsphysical to document my efforts on social media. I want to thank you in advance for keeping me accountable!
How are you going? Do you need a kick up the bum too? Want to use the school term as a motivator as well? Got any tips for me?