Sometimes the weirdest things can give me icky feelings. I can start to feel insecure or negative and I have to fight to pull myself out of a ‘mood’. Sometimes I get the urge to ‘do something’ about it. I may feel the need to vent to someone or ask someone what’s going on with them (when really it’s what’s going on with me). Luckily I often fight that urge and I realise that if I just let it sit and if I just sort through it, the feelings dissipate. It’s how I sort out the ‘real’ problems from the ‘imagined’ ones. It doesn’t mean there isn’t something wrong, I’m just trying to train myself to decide what’s really important – to keep things in proportion. Am I over thinking something? Am I overreacting? Does it really even matter if such and such didn’t say this or that or invite me to whatever?
Time doesn’t heal everything, but sometimes taking time to find perspective does. I don’t want to be that person who shoots off their mouth or makes knee jerk decisions, based on my insecurities. In this day and age, there are so many instant ways to communicate how we feel and I think there is a responsibility to stop and think first. I am glad that I did today.
How true is this? On a bad day, I tend to see the shitty things so much more. On a good day, I feel like nothing can go wrong. If I’m feeling down, the way I view things is coloured with my insecurities or doubts. It is up to me to choose to see at least one very good thing for every not so good thing I notice.
I’ve tried it today and it really has helped. It hasn’t taken my problems away, but it’s helped me to see that they’re not really big problems at all.
It’s hard when you make a lot of significant changes in your life for the better, but you feel that the people in your life may not have had the time/opportunity to notice these changes. It doesn’t mean that it wasn’t worth it. There’s just an adjustment period. For everyone. You just need to give it time and take the chances you get to show people the new, growing you. Not everyone will like it (or even bother to adjust their old perceptions of you), but those who are important will.
I can’t remember if I’ve posted this one before, so apologies if I seem repetitive. However, it’s something I am constantly reminding myself of. I am my own worst enemy and it is only me that gives me the permission to feel down about myself or not good enough. I need to have more faith in myself. I am a good person doing my best (a ‘best’ that I hope will always keep improving as I go about my life over time).
These are the best people to have in your life, right? They are the ones worth keeping. Who cares what the other ones think/feel about us?
Most importantly, let’s remember this. No matter what’s going on in your life. No matter who makes you feel less than loved. No matter what you’re feeling about yourself. Someone loves you. At the end of the day if you have someone in your life who thinks the world of you, then everything will be OK.
I wish you the happiest and most joyful of weekends – I have so much to look forward to! A hair appointment and quality time with my little family
Blogger’s note: While these posts can seem quite cryptic, this is for a reason. Not only am I guarding certain private things that are going on in my head/life, but I am just talking about general feelings and letting the lovely inspirational pictures and words speak for themselves. I hope that if you’re reading, these things are left open enough for your own interpretation and that they may help you to feel better today too.
How are you feeling this Friday?